Bummer Dude.

heh, I am killing time again, but I got like 40 minutes left and I am giddy.

You Are a Warrior Soul

You're a strong person and sometimes seen as intimidating. You don't give up. You're committed and brave. Truly adventuresome, you are not afraid of going to battle. Extremely protective of loved ones, you root for the underdog. You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods. You also value honesty and fairness a great deal. You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding. You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

I am SHE-Ra!Or Xena?
Ya know it sort makes sense. I ALWAYS get all hyped up after an action movie. So Warrior makes sense- I mean for my soul and all... Like after I saw The Matrix, I was all over being like Trinity and the spikey shoes -hard ass- carrying guns and doin kung fu thing! After I saw Aliens, I was all about the military and space and shaving my head like the marine chic that blew herself and the bad ass MFing monsters up. After I saw Underworld I wanted a Kate Beckinsale hair cut and to walk around all stalky- I am a death dealer... blah blah blah You killed my parents... blah... After I saw Point of No Return , I always did smile at the little things Ann Bancroft rocked my Beyotch world and yeah I wanted to sport heels and kill people like Bridget Fonda did -all classy like that- plus because of her I got into Nina Simone. And after I saw Kill Bill 1 & 2== WHooo Rahhh I wanted Samurai skillz... Yep. slicing and dicing and pirouetting. After I saw Waiting to Exhale, I was all Angela Bassett rules= angry woman strength - scorned woman strength- and she cut off all her hair! Heh I actually did that when I broke up with my firstlove of my life (Daniel Lopez you still really SUCK for what you did to me even if I was unstable and young)- but that was BEFORE the movie came out. So there!

Warrior Chic- needs old soul or peacemaker soul to chill her out now.... Or maybe some cheese.

Tuesdays with Janay

Drinking my Arizona Diet Peach Iced Tea and fumbling about at my desk thinking snarky thoughts, I am writing on my bloggity.

Took Seth to the Doc yesterday- he has an injured back muscle and is on short term disability for the week. Poor guy. No, he hurt himself working at stoopid Cherry St and not at our house- doing grown up stuff.... Yeesh sickos! So he is home and on drugs waiting to heal. I was very worried for him and I am actually glad he's injured so he can rest- of course being a man- he refused to take the pain killers last night and just the muscle relaxant because he didn't want to be woozy. Silly Man!

The YOB: No news on the yob front. Not worried. I am sticking to the stink hole I am in until God parts the Red Sea and shows me the land of milk and honey. Now if I could just behave myself...

Meanwhile my lil Sis has decided on a wedding day and wedding colors and wedding flowers and possible reception location. I am the maid of honor. I get to wear pale yellow. Kewl. I will look like a lemon or lemonade! :0

I am also happy that next week will be a short week and the following week will be shorter. Go Independance Day and Anniversary and Vacay Days! WhooHooo I long for the gentle waves of Lake MI and the bugs and the camp fire. I long for the smell of worms and earth and learning how to cast my new reel. Here litto fishy.

Things to say Yay!

I have my porch back! It is BEYooOOTIFUUULL! I finished painting my porch lamps which I will post later- like when my digital camera gets fixed- and I have most of my living room and dining room back. I took a celebration evening last night minus Seth cuz he was working stupid late ( stupid Cherry St for making him worky so dang late) and I watched Underworld Evolution and Batman Begins. I wish they made more movies like Batman Begins because it was sooo good. That Christopher Nolan - he directed Memento - which is also a very good movie. I like him a.lot.

SO it is Friday and a week later after all my hard work of emailing and mailing resumes. I got rejected once and now nada. Strangely I feel ok about all this. I think I'll survive. Meanwhile, I will peruse more ads- amazing that people even find jobs with some of these tacky -misinformative ads that are written...

Be thinking about me as I try to kill off 8 hours of Nuthing until sweet bliss of the weekend. Oh and YAY!

GAASP! Rejection Injection!

I got my first Reject Email today! Whoohooo! I had an impressive resume but it didn't cut it. Whatevah... Didn't want to work for you suckahs anyway... :P

Actually, I am relieved because you worry about these things and then you just let it go.

In other news, Our porch is finally painted and curing. I get to put all my crap back out there tonight or tomorrow! This means that I get my dining room and living room back! Now we are in consternation about finances and if we can swing paying to have the lower half of our house painted. It must happen, It needs to happen. BUT- a lot of other stuff needs to happen and that's the breaks.

My house wishlist:

1. Paint the damnmn thing
2. Finish the garden area thingy in front yard
3. Finish stripping paint and paint dining room
4. Finish painting foyer upstairs
5. Install light fixture in foyer upstairs
6. Identify cause of moldy loose paint in bedroom and FIX it
7. Repair back porch area
8. Build a deck
9. Replace all the craptastic windows
10. Finish the attic
11. Clean out the basement, the attic, my studio, and the garage
12. Build a pantry addition in basement
13. Paint my bedroom!
14. Paint the entry way
15. Finish the kitchen steps and paint the damnmn door


phew I am sore from typing all this. Better get back to the job search, I mean work. I mean sitting at my desk in futile resistance and pretending to look busy.

That's RIGHT!!!! Kermeee...

You Are Miss Piggy

A total princess and diva, you're totally in charge - even if people don't know it. You want to be loved, adored, and worshiped. And you won't settle for anything less. You're going to be a total star, and you won't let any of the "little people" get in your way. Just remember, piggy, never eat more than you can lift!

The Muppet Personality Test

I be a DIVA- You betchyo Ass I am a DEEVA! I want to be ADorK.... I mean aaadoooooredd.

Remembering Dad

So yesterday would have been Dad's 55th birthday. I was adrift all day. Both sad and aimless. Around 9pm last night the dam broke and I just let myself feel it. I really miss you Papa.

In other news, I have sent out 3 more resumes. The anxiety over this process is brewing and I am trying real hard to not have feelings of rejection before I have all my feedback. I forgot what this was like -it's only been 3 years.. but geez. I keep thinking in real time- that the moment my email hits their computer they will see it and instantly be entranced and swayed by my powerful cover letter. Heehee! What a load of crap! I'll be lucky if I make it into the sort pile for the KEEPERS. Either way, I know I am not alone in this so must find a way to relax.

You Are Duck

Exotic and unusual, you are a bit of a rare bird - literally. You're known for being soft and succulent, though at times you can be a bit greasy.

What Kind of Meat Are You?

See? Rare! I be a Princess Duck! QUAAAAAAAACKKKKKK! and I can be greasy! Like a Mexican? Yeah cuz I be a Greasy Mexican Duck! OK I losing it... I'll post something else.

BWAAHAHAHA! Tanks Capt WOW!

Cause Barney started it...

You Are Marge Simpson

You're a devoted family member who loves unconditionally. Sometimes, though, you dream about living a wild secret life! You will be remembered for: your good cooking and evading the police Your life philosophy: "You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."

The Simpsons Personality Test

Futuristic Spy Poofs

It's Friday, we are inching closer to July and our planned Anniversary Outting. It'll be 5 years!
I just have to say that I am real excited about our plans. We are camping up in Lelanau County State Park ( right on Lake Michigan)! We bought a tent and a roll-up camp table and a couple camp chairs and a Queen sleeping bag! I have replaced our lost beach blankets ( may they rest in peace in the White River!) I bought a bungie cord for my glasses so I don't lose them when we go kayaking again. And Seth bought me a fishing reel and I will try my hand at some fishing! Pretty Exciting Stuff! I have a tackle box and fake worms and mini fishys.. All the ecoutrements for a fantastic time! BUT..........

Does anyone have good recipe ideas for camp food? I have all the stuff to cook with, even a two burner propane camp stove. I can't eat a lot of bread -so sandwiches aren't much of an option. I suppose I could freeze some steaks and keep them in the cooler... Dunno. So I need help! Heh.


On another note. This weekend is Father's Day. I am torn. My dad would have been 55 yrs old this year. Seth wants to take my father in law out to dinner on Saturday and I have a card to mail my step dad. In general tho, I feel selfish. I don't want to think about it, but I have obligations. Last year I didn't feel this bad about it, and this year I miss my papa so much more. Maybe because we lost Gram's this year and Chessie our wobbley cat and we left our church and I'm losing my job. Maybe this weekend is more a reminder of loss that anything celebratory. Yep. That's prolly it.

SNAPPING OUT OF IT:
Yo ya'll- I put in 2 inquiries on yobs this week. I hope to get a call- one never knows. These things are delicate operations. The wierd news is that one yob is at the same place where Seth works. Wierd or what? I need prayahs in a big way. His yob is a non profit- and I sortof had enough of that. The good news is that it won't be in a social work capacity, but in HR. The bad news is that I know the dirt on the director and some of the staff. Ahh well. It is in Big G's hands and I don't mean the Ginster. The other job is in Marketing- fun maybe? we'll see. The one thing I can say is that GR is not a yob friendly place if your not in the medical field.

First Steps

OK, this week I got more cold water in the face about my job. I think I'm a sucker for punishment. Growing up in a psycho family can prolly condition one for that, but I digress. So, Monday night I looked at over 5, 000 job adverts on 4 different job websites and found 5 ads that I felt maybe I was interested in and could qualify for. I took those five and threw out 2 right away. One job because it was for a non-profit and I tell you I cannot do it anymore. I refuse to work for less pay and less respect. My experience has been that in the nonprofit world there is a gaping hole in the caring about employees as they pour their blood out to help the poor. The poor aren't cared for very well either. I digress.

One ad really caught my attention. I decided yesterday that I needed to follow up on it because I need to leave this job before my negative energy threatens to sufficate my world. So I reworked my resume and wrote a snappy cover letter. I hope I didn't go over the top, but oh well.
I can't hide who I am. I have a lot of vivacious, peppy qualities. I have a sense of humor and fun. Somebody in GR might recognize that and see it as a benefit to their company. I hope so, I am afraid I am losing my pep working for the borg. I think I managed to market 8 years of social work as a positive thing. If Imake it to interview I'll let ya'll know!

On a different note. Sookie ( my catkitten) is in her wierd terrible 2's stage. She freaks out and hides and then pounds on Harry ( the cat who thinks he's a dog). Lately in the morning she is allowing me to cuddle her and lover her. It is startling because she is in a pre-dawn affectionate phase that with the day turns into scorn. Maybe she has her Kitty-Period.

Mind Bending the Platinum Spoon

Hey ya'll, prolly no one reads my blog anymore cuz i haven't posted in so long. Such is life.
I've been busy. I've been on a negative energy streak. I've been waiting for motivation. Steve just posted about this article he read about seeing things really quick and making a stategy. I'm real good at snap judgments, decision making - but I also linger and get afraid that I royally screwed up. Sooo I dunno. Right now I am just thinking about change and how I need it.